Inspired slightly by 's most recent journal mind farts, I am gonna write down whats on my mind at this current point in time.

1. Bloody asian girls. They're so damn pretty, it ain't fair. Wish I was Japanese.

2. If I was asian would he love me more?

3. Or greener eyes. I'd settle for having greener eyes if it made my appearance any less hideous.

4. I can't believe that PIG of a brother ate all the coco pops. I'm gonna castrate him in his sleep with rusty scissors.

5. What IS IT with my parrot and my watch? Seriously, its like it really offends her.

6. I need a face mask. My skin feels like its been dipped in chip fat.

7. I miss Michael so so so much Although it STILL feels like he isn't really gone.

8. Well I believe in ghosts don't I? Maybe he's here in some form then...I wanna cuddle my MJ doll.

9. Money. Need. And not for myself like most of the world. I wanna pay off Loren's mum and I wanna spoil the hell out of Shaun tomorrow, but I can't

10. I bet he's gonna be really disappointed in me. The present I've got him is pathetic coming from a girlfriend of nearly 2 years.

11. Most couples I know split up around the two year mark And my nightmares have been more persistent than usual.

12. Great. All I need is for it to happen now. Just when I was all set to go Uni. Mum will kill me when I don't make the grades. If I'm not already dead by then anyway.

13. ....Goddamn I'm depressing.

14. I found out I have Tocophobia today. Thats my 4th official phobia. Alongside arachnophobia, dentophobia and traumatophobia. I sound like a hypochondriac.

15. Long words hurt my brain.

16...I think I'll go have that cuppa now.