Inspired slightly by 's most recent journal mind farts, I am gonna write down whats on my mind at this current point in time.

1. Bloody asian girls. They're so damn pretty, it ain't fair. Wish I was Japanese.

2. If I was asian would he love me more?

3. Or greener eyes. I'd settle for having greener eyes if it made my appearance any less hideous.

4. I can't believe that PIG of a brother ate all the coco pops. I'm gonna castrate him in his sleep with rusty scissors.

5. What IS IT with my parrot and my watch? Seriously, its like it really offends her.

6. I need a face mask. My skin feels like its been dipped in chip fat.

7. I miss Michael so so so much Although it STILL feels like he isn't really gone.

8. Well I believe in ghosts don't I? Maybe he's here in some form then...I wanna cuddle my MJ doll.

9. Money. Need. And not for myself like most of the world. I wanna pay off Loren's mum and I wanna spoil the hell out of Shaun tomorrow, but I can't

10. I bet he's gonna be really disappointed in me. The present I've got him is pathetic coming from a girlfriend of nearly 2 years.

11. Most couples I know split up around the two year mark And my nightmares have been more persistent than usual.

12. Great. All I need is for it to happen now. Just when I was all set to go Uni. Mum will kill me when I don't make the grades. If I'm not already dead by then anyway.

13. ....Goddamn I'm depressing.

14. I found out I have Tocophobia today. Thats my 4th official phobia. Alongside arachnophobia, dentophobia and traumatophobia. I sound like a hypochondriac.

15. Long words hurt my brain.

16...I think I'll go have that cuppa now.

Y'know, having no scanner can really hinder your enthusiasm on here

Okay pathetic beyond pathetic excuse I know. I've fallen into the trap of impatience actually. I get ideas and think YAY inspiration, then I sit with my sketchbook, doodle, then throw a hissy fit because its not looking amazing straightaway. Common, rude and downright anti-arty. I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Actually I just re-read this and realised its a moan session, scroll past if I got it right and you don't wanna read that

If only mum would let me have the new spare room as my art room ¬ 3¬ Oh yeah, she went and blew 10 grand on a house extension. What led to this was...
Mum: Can he (my brother) have your bedroom when you go Uni?
Me: !? D': B-b-but I'll be commuting tons, like at weekends and in the holidays.
Mum: Mkay, I'll just build him a bigger room.

I was NOT happy Firstly, it cost 10 grand, so wheres my 10 grand then? Secondly, I'M the one who's gonna have to fork out £15k for Uni, surely the 10 grand would be better spent that way? And thirdly, 10 grand!!! Where the heck are we gonna get 10 grand from? So its built now and the only pro about it is that he is not in the main house, so it doesn't stink anymore, and theres no shitty music, no unflushed toilets, and no him basically. Its a huge relief. By the time he gets a freeview box installed in his new room, he'll only have to come in the house for food.

But his old room is right next to mine, so why can I set up tons of cork boards and art easels and canvas sheets in there? But noooo, mum spent wholly unnecessary amounts of money on it making it look pretty for guests

And now I'm funding a £300 bus pass while she pays £40 a month for his. I can see who her favourite is. I think its because I refused to do a course she wanted me to do. I'm into art and media, and English Language AS was painfully boring enough, and I'm so not doing A2. So she went ballistic when I said that, threatened to pull out everything like all Uni support etc etc. And this is what I get for it.

*moan moan moan*


I'm currently doing my 2nd and final year of a Btec in Creative ICT, which includes animation, web design, photoshop, illustrator, adobe flash, cinema 4D, and video-making. W00p de woop. The only problem is, we haven't got a drawing class this year so I have no creative outlet. I worked best when I had an art class :\ I'm looking into doing an art club or something. When I find a decent scanner I'll post up what I did last year mkay?

Don't talk to me about Uni. I'll only go into one of my panic attacks (not literal but you get what I mean).

Things with Shaun are going great, will be 2 years come October 26th It seems likely we'll be going the same Uni

My current passions? Japan, Harajuku, Japan, t.A.t.U, Gwen Stefani, Japan, pocky, car boot sales for cheap and cute clothes, Japan, tea and looking forward to winter which is my favourite season

And as you guessed from my last few entries, I took the death of Michael Jackson VERY hard. I've been a fan since I was old enough to comprehend him. My first CD was my mum's handmedown of his album Dangerous when I was 3. Well my journal says the rest. Miss you so much Michael :'(

I'm gonna go get a cuppa and take this headband off so my parrot will stop hissing at it. She's already a bit peeved because I wore chopsticks in my hair today. And she attacked my hand when I was putting my hair up in a scrunchie the other week. You can see she ain't changed one bit

Love to everyone, I haven't forgotten you! Gommenasai, Sayanora!

So, like, I just got a B in Media Studies A-level.

Of course my Mum ain't happy.


But I am

University in one year now, just my animation course to complete.

W00p.

British if :
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell"
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] you can eat a Full English Breakfast
[x] you dislike EMOS! almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] its football, not soccer.
Total= 6

Australian if :
[ ] you wear flip flops all year
[ ] you love a backyard barbie.
[x] you know a barbie is not just a doll.
[x] you love the beach.
[x] sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] you're a sports fanatic.
[x] you are tanned.
[ ] you're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] you have an australian something (shirt, phone sock, etc.)
Total= 4

Italian if :
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes/made her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes like.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color
[x] You speak some italian
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total= 6

Mexican if :
[ ] You say member instead of remembe.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU tYpE lIkE tHiS.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total= 2

Russian if :
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of sombody named natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[ ] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total= 3

Irish if :
[ ] You love to drink.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc OR Murph or O' or Fitz or ends with a ley,on,un,an,in,ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and/or singing.
Total = 4


Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] People think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total= 2


Canadian if :
[x] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total= 2

British Italian? Fuck me thats creepy. Thats EXACTLY right. I'm half cockney (Londoner to you Americans), and half Italian. Yikes o_O